the booze and the drugs

why is it that people can devote themselves so strongly to drugs and alcohol and nothing else?

when i first got drunk, and many times after that first time, it definitely was fun - it was a new experience for me, something that i couldn't compare to anything else in the past. it didn't take long until i couldn't put it out of my mind that my euphoria was all artificial. it was easily apparent that in a few short hours when i woke up my mood wouldn't be jubilant and i'd have a headache and just feel generally shitty overall. the novelty of alcohol wore off, and now i'll maybe have a few drinks or so when classes are out of session. maybe.

how does a dependence develop? how can you not have a point when you realize, "this is enough."? i suppose its something cyclical. the alcoholic realizes that all their happiness is synthetic, and instead of trying to change it, accepts it. they go through the day, depressed, and all day are yearning for the booze. they find their happiness, pass out, wake up, and repeat. i rekon thats how it goes.

its really all a symptom of our culture, i think. our hypocritical, fucked up culture. "feeling bad? take some prozac! want to have fun? drink a beer! no, you can't smoke that marijuana, its bad for you!" its only logical that people who grow up in that culture wind up as dependent on drugs as their parents are. mixed messages are no help - DARE says, "Drugs are Bad!" while the doctor says, "You have ADD Timmy, take these drugs!"

hooray for the long-winded mostly-aimless rant.............. i worry about c.

DAMMIT!!!

i didn't get the job. that is the shittiest of all shit. the pioneernet guy (tim) called to let me know they gave it to some guy who used to work at whidbeynet. bastards!

time to start the search over again.

me = wardriver

i undertook some mad wardriving today. i drove from john's house in penn cove to highway 20 going north, and then cut off through titus's neighborhood to fort nugent road, and from there took swantown to heller and then cut through those apartments to get onto barrington and make my way back home. i found 29 access points - only seven were making use of WEP, and one of those seven was mine. that's 22 places to wreak untold havoc if i were so inclined. i wonder if osama has ever heard of linksys?

one of the access point owners had the technical skill to change his SSID to 'm4r1ju4n4' but still didn't have wep enabled. wtf?

some stuff i just did

i just:

• confirmed that bellingham travel had booked chi-ho for the flights in addition to robin and myself. they sent me an email without chi-ho's name at first, but i got them to send me a proper email with the names of all us mad summit attendees.


• went to ACE hardware and ordered up a new screen for my window. hopefully this will prevent any more stanky moth kamikazes into my bright-ass halogen light.


• went to the DMV and got new tabs, cause mine expire next month. it was a long wait (like a half an hour) but there was a sexy filipino chick workin the counter, so it was all good.


• went to bank of america to get my address switched from bellingham to oak harbor. it was a long line, as well. there were some older filipino chicks working in the flower department. i rekon if i were as old as they were then they would be hot, so i guess that sort of cancels out that long line.


• stopped by pioneernet again to check in on that l33t job h4x0ring the intarweb. its still not filled. i got to leave my name and number at the front desk again.

office work

i used to think that office jobs were quite swanky, laid back, non-stressful, and easy. i have since rethunk.

i probably spent three hours today filling out forms, making phone calls, and contemplating hardcore decisions related to our nscs leadership summit trip to dc. and i have to make another trip to bellingham tomorrow because i was first informed that i could fax my expenditure requests, but i'm now told that the finance office requires the physical copy with my original signature on it. that'll be four trips in five days!

well, i rekon i'll go play some wicked diablo ii to waste some time and relax a bit. that shall rock.

firefox rox

i added an awesome mozilla button to the sidebar over yonder cause firefox is a superior browser and whatnot.

red tape!!!

blahhhh. filling out forms is lame. i have so many forms to fill out. and budget crap. and blah blah blah.

at least i have my gnucash. gnucash r0x0r5. it is l33t like whoa. double entry accounting 4ever!!!!

throw another on the grill

smokey smokey - there goes another moth.

i should invest in a screen for my window.

bach-a-rock

i just bought bach's cello suites (as played by yo-yo ma) on itunes. before that i bought nate dogg's album, music and me. i bought that cause i really like the track on 2001 that he sings for. his complete album ain't so great. i'll probably like the bach better.

there's a moth cooking on my halogen lamp and it smells rancid. if you're a vegitarian, there is no argument you could make to keep from eating moths (that is, if i were starving and had nothing else to eat). they flutter around an intensely hot light surrounded by the charred corpses of their cousins until they're overcome and become charred corpses themselves.

moth != bambi

damn near done

for the past three days i've been moving all my crap from bellingham to oak harbor. today shall be the second to last day of doing that. now i only have three items left in bellingham: my bike, my recliner, and my couch. i'm hoping for nice weather tomorrow so that i may get everything back without any sogginess.

man, i love it here. i do miss the bellingham advantages that i'm missing out on. there's some nscs stuff i could be doing if i had stayed in bellingham. i could've continued working at the help desk. oh well, i love being at home.

now i must eat kickass enchiladas.

filthy whore plays fair!

i got that outrageous ho that sent me the wrong game to correct his mistake in a responsible manner:

Brandon,

     Actually, in my experiences on eBay as a buyer I've never known a
seller to send a refund before the original product was returned to them.
But I see your point.  My main concern was not that you would defraud
me, but rather that I wanted to know the amount of the postage I would be
refunding in order to send reimbursement for the correct amount along
with the replacement game.  On further thought, this really isn't much of
an issue.  An opened game would not be worth much more than return
postage anyway.  So, keep the game and I will ship a replacement on
Monday by Priority Mail to the address you gave in your last e-mail.

Regards,
Seth

i still hate that guy, he knows how much postage costs, he sent the damn thing. filthy whore.

whats awesome is that now i'll have two copies, which means two cd keys. i rekon i might hook one of my friends up with some diablo II so that we may engage in wacky battle.net fun.

i am free!

i am now in oak harbor. it rocks.

i have to go back to bellingham to get more of my crap.

but, oh well. i'm home, and it rocks.

and i might have a job with pioneernet. that rocks, as well.

my room is awesome.

i am happy.

job of awesomeness!

i may have a job working tech support at pioneernet this summer. that would rock like no other! help deskin is the best job i've ever had.

homosexual ebay seller

emailing the flatsack who sold me the copy of diablo II that won't work on my iBook generated a response:

Brandon,

     Thank you for contacting me.  I have another 4 of these games
remaining, from the same lot as the one I shipped to you, and on the
bottom flap of each box it lists the system requirements for use with a
Mac.  I also know personally friends with macs who have successfully
installed and played the game (same version) on their computers.  So what
you're describing should not be the case.  I would ask that you check the
system requirements stated on the box and ensure that your system meets
them.  Beyond that, it would have to be some sort of error unique to your
computer.  I have a PC myself, so I probably can't be of much help in the
tech support department.  Blizzard (the game's publisher) may be able to
help though.  Their number and website should be listed somewhere in the
instruction manual.

Regards,
Seth

fuck you, guy. this ain't no user error, I've got a hella tight iBook that will run the CORRECT version of Diablo II without any struggles. I sent him a scan of the bottom of the box that lists only Windows system requirements and a link to a macobserver.com article to demonstrate to him that yes, there is, indeed, a version of Diablo II that won't work on both systems.

harsh

today:

a final i was unprepared for.
filling out wacky AS forms that i was unprepared for.
eating food from the viking commons that my digestive system was unprepared for.

tomorrow:

moving back is cool.

dammit

i ordered diablo II off of ebay for my ibook. it got here today, and its the fucking pc version. filthy whores! oh well, i'm copying all the discs anyway, so fuck that guy.

fucking mtv

i'm sick of hearing postal service in the background of every damn mtv show i watch. how dare they use the superior music of the postal service as fucking background music while devoting an entire half hour slot to the making of some shitty jessica simpson video.

postal service rules, bitches.

post de jour...

i'm yet to post today, and i'd really like to make it onto a certain list of 'active' users, so here's a few things that happened today:

• i got my oil changed, along with a number of other things. the guy at texaco made me feel how heavy my air filter is cause its got a lot of oil in it. yes, i'm aware that my jeep is falling apart and is hazardous to both my health and the environment. i don't have the $$$ to do much about it though. i don't even have cash enough to insure the beast. speaking of which, i should really get the two lights that are out (one signal, one license plate) fixed right quick.



• i went biking, which at first was lame cause i'm out of the habit. late in the ride i saw this cute asian chick and did a little stoppie on high street, hopped a curb, and then wheelied off this little three foot droppie thing. those cute asian chicks just have an awesome power over me.



• i had rudy's pizza for the first time. it was pretty good, but now i'm stuffed and burping a lot.

sweet ass ibook

damn, os x is the best thing i've ever spent money on.

fink is so cool. all the best oss projects in a big list ready for my apt-getting...

and os x is fucking PRETTY. so beautiful. i got radiohead in my dock.

today i finked myself some nmap to reveal that port 80 might be open on this website that this crazy lady swears she uses to access her mywestern email. 21 was also open, but no anonymous access... and it was PRETTY: os x terminal windows can be made translucent.

awesome 802.11g

sweet!

i gotta get me some of them airtunes.
AirPort Express

help desk

dude, i totally need to start using the help desk as a medium for meeting ladies. there have been so many times when girls are giddy as hell cause i've recovered the final paper they stored on some ghetto floppy disk and would jump to go on a date with their savior.

professionalism vs. punani. that is the battle.

i can also see that their style senses are overwhelmed whenever i whip my ibook out to tackle some wacky mac problem. this ibook rocks.

cool dream

i had an awesome dream last night... i was in some sort of classroom that was kind of setup like a smaller lecture hall, but it seemed to be filled with high school students. this cute girl on my left who told me she was from fiji just started kissing on my cheek and then we started making out. she had corn rows, which was kinda weird. and she didn't really look like she was from fiji, she looked fairly mexican. i didn't care, though - it was one of those cool dreams where it seems to last for weeks. we dated, and i visited her house (in fiji, i had to take some kind of big freighter boat to get there). unfortunately, there was no naked action to be had. even in my dreams, i'm still unable to score!

roommates

bloody shiite, i just concluded that $600 a month for a one bedroom isn't very feasible for next year, and the cheaper one bedrooms would only marginally improve my finances while stripping away all the best amenities (free cable, washer/dryer, etc.)

dammit.

i rekon i'll have to invest some time in tracking down a responsible non-slobbish roommate for the 2004-2005 school year. i think i'll focus on the opposite sex, cause 99% of dudes are slobs by nature. there's 14 people listed on wwu's off campus housing registry, most of them female. i want an awesome townhouse.

yeehaw.

the numbers (a conservative estimate):

600 Rent
30 DSL
40 Cable TV
100 Food
20 Electricity
45 Cellular Telephone
10 Local Telephone
---
845 Monthly Total
* 9
---
7605 Yearly Total


15009 Financial Aid for 2004-2005
7605 Housing and food and whatnot
4446 Tuition
780 Books and Supplies
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2178 Leftovers
/ 9
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242 Monthly leftovers

random sunday adventure

so, around noon today - still suffering from a headache from drinking those three (3!) beers from the keg last night - i got this unnatural urge to go to the mall and buy a red polo with stripes.
i went to the mall, no red striped polos at any of the places i shop at. i decided that i'd check out eb and maybe buy warcraft iii, since thats a reasonably awesome game that would work on my ibook. none warcraft iii to be had, either. the experience wasn't a total loss though, cause i picked up some arby's on the way back home. yeeup.

then the dudes and i played burnout two for an ungodly amount of time.

mmhmm.

oh snap!

i done made a blog.